Be you, for you.

You are the love of your own life. Love yourself first!

Long time no see…

I’m coming back to Substack a year after I posted my first piece here. I received so much love and support from strangers across the world….not a huge crowd, but it meant everything to me. I made new friends here… even besties… and all these kind people made some of my hardest days feel a little lighter.

Now I’m in university… first semester exams done… and I think I’ve become a different person. I’ve moved on from my past. All those dark gloomy days are gone.

Life has changed.
And I’ve learned to accept those changes… the busier pace, the constant movement…

I’m growing into a phase where I no longer dwell on the past. I look forward now. I think about what’s ahead instead of regretting what’s behind. And for the first time in a while, I can truly focus on the present. I’ve started putting myself before anything and everything. I prioritise myself the most. WHATEVER THE QUEEN SAYS.

Yes, I’m still a little delusional… still fickle-minded… still a bit lazy, and very much in love with my comfort zone… but I’ve learned to accept my flaws. Everyone has them. And I’ve learned to love myself with all of mine.

These days… I don’t mind being alone sometimes. I don’t mind outgrowing friendships either, because I’ve started choosing myself and seeing people for who they truly are.

But I still love the same way. I’m not selfish—just more self-aware, with stronger self-respect. I still care deeply about people. I’ve just stopped seeking attention… and maybe that’s why I stopped sharing my life here on Substack for a while. But I never stopped writing. I still do—just in my personal diary. Pen and paper. Very private.

And I’ve never stopped reading either. Not just from Substack or online sources—I read books. I finished the Powerless series by Lauren Roberts, and now I’m diving into the Fourth Wing series by Rebecca Yarros. I guess I do have a thing for “enemies to lovers” and dystopian worlds.

The transition from school to university really reshapes you.
Suddenly, you feel that you’ve really grown up. Letting go becomes easier. You begin to understand what life actually demands….that you’ll have to earn money, take responsibility, and stand on your own.
You start telling yourself “who cares?” or “fuck them” a little more often, and it feels necessary.

You realise you have to find your own path, because now you truly are an adult. It’s your life. Every decision you make carries weight. And when things go wrong—and they will—it’s on you to figure them out and move forward.

Now you understand that life isn’t a battle with your peers, whom you once thought were your competitors… life is a war against life itself.

I know I’ve grown up, and I have responsibilities now… a lot to study, a lot to figure out…
But at the same time, I’ve started nurturing the little child within me. I gift myself Kinder Joys, Cadburys, ice creams, and plushies. I cook delicious dishes just for myself. I watch animated movies….and all those superhero movies. And I’ve come to love my own company—especially when watching movies alone. I make time for myself to sing, dance and recite…sometimes for painting as well.

Self-love is so important.
Take those selfies when you feel good—post them before overthinking.
Make time for self-care. Dress well. Feel confident. Eat what you love. Buy things that make you happy. Be a little rebellious… all for yourself. Stand up for yourself. You deserve the best. Don’t settle for less (unless that’s genuinely what you choose). It’s all about YOU. Your feelings matter. At the end of the day, it’s you against the world.

PS: I’ll be active on Substack again, guys. Maybe I won’t share as much about my personal life (maybe, idk)… but I will write about my views—on politics, on things that are normalised but shouldn’t be, and on spirituality.

Stay tuned, amigos! <3